new world of work

The other night I dreamt that I used up all my stash and that as a consequence all my boxes of fabric, thread, yarn, buttons, bits and bobs were empty. Utterly empty. I can't remember if there was a part of the dream where I had a great time using everything up but there was a kind of an exhilarating feeling. And an utterly empty desolation. I'm sure there are all sorts of ways to interpret this dream but I think it must be to do with the making and the markets and this other job that I know bits of but need to learn as I go. Actually I'm learning all of it as I go. It's mostly good. I am enjoying this making so, so much. My head is buzzing with ideas and things to make and although most of my ideas don't turn out as I imagine they should, I have received enough positive feedback at markets and on the internet to think maybe I am on a good path. That if I keep working hard, that it will come.
--But maybe it won't. There is that risk there. At the Ceres Harvest Festival market last weekend there were lots of great hand made goods for sale, really beautiful well made craft  But not so many people, and not many of them in a buying mood. I get that. I live in a small house and funds are finite so I am very select about what I buy myself. So I find myself wondering whether the hand craft market is oversaturated. Is there just so much out there that business is spread really thin? Do you have to be really, really good and really unique to stand out? Or was it just part of the up and down of going to the markets? Obviously as I've only done two markets, I probably need a bit more experience before voicing a solid opinion on that one. But as I'm looking around the hand crafted market place and noticing more and more, it does seem that there is an awful lot of hand crafted goodness out there. Which is great, but I don't think finding your place in the hand crafted market is necessarily a simple thing.
- A whole lot of things came together last week. I have someone to work with for the craft business, in the sense that we are going to share some stalls together and I am working with another local person to develop a website for a kindergarten. I feel really lucky that it's come together like this. But a tad anxious too. I have skills but I really need to learn some new ones - quite quickly. A steep learning curve. A bit like starting a new job. Oh wait.... The difference is that instead of having a workplace induction, I'm in charge of all my own learning. Which is awesome in a way. Even so, two days before my last market I had the most insane chest tightening, teeth hurting panic attack. It was really annoying because my rational brain was saying you will get this, it's all doable, you are good at learning new things, you are living your dream. And my monkey brain was going freak out, freak out, freak out. Stupid monkey brain.

So yeah, big learning curve. I have thought about whether I should share work stuff here, but hey now that I am boss of my own work place I can say whatever I like within reason. No code of conduct, the consequences are all my own. So if I feel like it, I can document my working life here on my personal blog however I choose.

Photos are from the market. I can't wait to do it again.

first craft camp for the year

It's hard to express just how much I was looking forward to my first craft weekend at Sewjourn for the year and hanging out with my special craft camp people. It was very exciting! Lovely to see everyone and lovely to be at Sewjourn and sew and knit and just be. As usual the food was stunning (although I did forget the all important dip part of my lunch - but oh well it came out OK) and it was just delightful to be cooked for and nurtured in that way. Coming bang smack in the stinky Melbourne heatwave, it was nice to be somewhere slightly cooler and with air conditioning. Nothing like trying to sew in a hot sweaty little study so it was great to have a break from that. I think apart from a quick visit to the shops on the first day, the only time I went outside was to go between the house and the studio.
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There was much um, crafting. I made two tee shirts, some not quite right (yet) horses, some little bags, some little brooches with my wooden buttons and a sample tea towel lunch bag. Samples for my craft stall. Lots of development to do there. Grace was delighted with my horses and when I said she could have one, she immediately chose the first and wonkiest. The one I thought had the most issues! Oh well, back to the drafting table with that one.

Thank you to Suse for being the organisational mastermind, thank you to Jenny and Suse for driving and thank you to all the craft camp women who make such a lovely weekend away in so many ways. Most of us don't really blog any more so I am not going to link but you know who you are. Thank you. Mwah.

february cousin visit

Yes, I know that it is nearly the end of March and the cousins came to visit during the first week of February. Grace had several days off school and although we cleared it with the school first, there was a little tension around that. There were lots of visits with Papa Robert and Nina including the somewhat underwhelming Aquarium and dinner at Pizza Plus. There was Nana's 70th birthday party and dinner. Also hanging out at the pool and lots of just hanging out. Then they came and stayed for a couple of nights, in a tent in the backyard with the snakes.
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As usual, it was intense in parts. All that normal family visiting compressed into two too short weeks. But, sigh, how I loved seeing them and how I miss them now. I don't think I took a particularly great set of photos this time but here they are.